Nosunday

I'm slightly emotional about this now. How cool.

So what happened today? Well the chief of the Chief of the IMF, Dominique Strauss-Kahn (DSK), got arrested for attempted rape in New York as he boarded a plane to Paris. Having seen a few interviews with him, it's a real shame that such a deeply intellectual and charismatic guy like him basically ruined his career, and especially his chances of taking presidency in France, where he until recently led the pre-election polls. Other women came out to talk about his sexually aggressive vice, "Who hasn't been cornered by Strauss-Kahn?" said one. I'm a bit perplexed by it, but it seems to be a perfect example of a very high achieving logical thinker who has lack of control over his inner-animal and his urges, letting them go wild in an inappropriate amount, time and place. Lacking life balance is excusable as long as it doesn't grow to proportions that cause you to misjudge a situation and act out in such an unforgivable way. Extreme life unbalances can be so self-destructive. It may also be a case of an extremely large ego that won't take no for an answer, again fueled by neglected wants and needs.

My taste for adventure is pretty great. I certainly wouldn't take a political role right now if I was offered it. Does adventure necessarily entail illegal, hurtful or politically incorrect behaviour? Thankfully not. For me the greatest feelings of adventure come from really living in the moment, with no regard for past or future. The risk of misbehaving in those moments is there, but I always draw the line at the criminal, the grossly unethical, the hurtful and basically all the negative things. But to approach anything resembling balance given my 60-hour a week investment strategy career, the need for adventure in my life as a 23 year old is unquestioned.

Anyway today was a very rainy lazy Sunday. I'm not even sure where the time went, but I did cook. A low-carb meal, semi-consistent with the paleo diet idea I was recently entertaining, consisting of boiled vegetables and feta and smoked salmon salad. Not bad, but it didn't hit the spot. Had to fill up on yet more pizza...

I woke up next to Kim my new girlfriend today. Although a strong thirst for adventure might seem to clash with having a relationship, I feel Kim relates to this part of me. No stranger to adventure, Kim has seen a lot of the world in her many travels. She's in touch with her emotions and responsible about them, sensitive but independent, open-minded but well grounded.

I'm moving towards greater career-oriented balance these days. The half-year review was a bit of a wake-up call and I realized that my lifestyle up until recently wasn't ideally calibrated for the international finance career I've been working towards these past few years. The constant outings earlier in the year were fun and lively, with many experiences, but came at a cost. Constantly living in the moment clashed a lot with my longer term goals, and I no longer took as much pleasure from my job. This became evident to my team and after being confronted about it, I realized that this job really was something I wanted very deeply. Losing it would be a big career blow, and would be very hard to recover from. Not worth risking for a few more relatively empty one night stands. Picking up women was a great way for me to learn about myself and the world. A friend of mine wondered how I could be so motivated by offering sex to women. I thought about it and I realized that it was much more the journeys that really fulfilled me, not the sex. Empty sex never feels very good anyway. Sex was simply a motivational tool to push me to go on these journeys, but now I feel that I've developed a real taste simply for connecting with others.

Anyway I'll end it there for now. Here's to a little bit of shut eye before work.

Song I'm listening to
Ridiculous/fun video with lots of small tits
Cool pics of crazy logistics